Monday, April 18, 2005
terrible..terrible flu
Gosh! Im sick! Ouh well.. Whats new huh?? Im down with a flu. A very terrible flu. Been 'achooing' since yesterday. And i apperantly cant stop. And I didnt get any sleep last nyte bcoz my nose was very irritating. It irritate the heck out of me. I only get to sleep at about 5am. And its almost my wake up tyme to go to skool. So i decided not to go school coz i'll be having my NAFA test later on at 3.15pm. Im sick and i ddint get any rest so, thats basically explains it. My mom's yacking at me again. Bcoz i keep missing skool. I told her that i miss school bcoz im sick not bcoz im lazy. And she asked me if i wanna continue studying or not. (O_o) Well, Im back to skool tmorrow. I have to. Or else ppl will be yacking at me again. And i certainly dont want that to happen coz my ears are sore, really, im not kidding! Well, thats it for tday. Bfore my computer hangs on me AGAIN! Blardy hell!! Im so gonna smash this computer up when i lose my patience. I swear!To my lurvely one,Im just mad at what u've done that's all. Im so glad everything's settle. Now, im not mad anymore. I just dont want u to repeat the same mistake. Just tell me next tyme okie. And pls, u noe whats important rite bebeh, for this point in tyme. Yes, i was angry yesterday but that doesnt mean that i wanna leave u. Tak terlintas pon kat hati i . Im just sorry for making u in that state yesterday. I am. I love u. U noe that. : x PS: Dun ever say that u are not worth my kiss. Dun ever say all those things u said yesterday okie. U are worth it, No matter what. I love u.
{>*<} My everything {>*<}
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Sunday, April 17, 2005
my eyes burn frm these tears..
Thank you so much, and now im offically hurt...
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:) I love FALIQ (:
Helo people! Miss me?? Nyehnyehnyeh.. I gotta make this a fast one coz I may not noe when my computer will start to get bitchy on me again ( hang lah!). So irritating!! HmmPH! Well, I simply adore my bebeh's layout. It is especially for me! Yey!! So cute!! And the words is so touching.. AWW.. I LOVE HIM :)
Well, my leg is aching rite now. Due to the 2.4km run (WHICH WE DID NOT GET TO FINISH IT BTW, BCOZ IT WAS ALREADY RECESS TYME). Urgghh! We ran for nothing! Stupid teacher who came late and ask us to run even though he came about 20 minutes late. Now i cant walk properly. I walk lyk I have something stuck at my crotch area( pardon me).
Hmm..i feel lyk my body is burning. My throat hurts badly. My mouth is dry. My lips is chipped. I always need to get water down my throat or else it hurts. My body is really burning up. Last nyte i even shivered(not bcoz im cold but bcoz my body temperature is really high) aint that scary?? My bebeh says that even my palms is hot. I touch his butt and he could feel my palms hotness through his boxers. Gosh!! I took a cold bath just now, dont noe whether it'll work. I guess i have to put some ice on my forehead.
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Sunday, April 10, 2005
why ouh why~
Tell me that im crazy..
I just hate the jealousy feelin..
To be insecure and doubtful...
I hate this feelin, really..
I tried to hide it...
I tried to ignore it..
I try to forget about it...
I try to keep the hurtin to myself..
I try not to question myself..
and say, "hey! Its just his fren''
but somehow I try to hide it..
the feelin just manage to pop up again..
But tell me..
How can I not feel jealous?
He's so good-lookin,
He's nice,
He's hot,
He has everything that a girl wants..
Im just an ordinary girl..
Who lacks in everything..
Be it the looks,
the characteristics..
and the list goes on and on..
Tell me,
which girl wouldnt be afraid that he would get snatched away,
For god sake..
He can jolly well be with a girl who has everything,
but why he choose me?
Im just a 16 yr old girl..
But i guess its true,
my social life and his are totally different..
the way I treat guys and the way he treat girls are so different...
Maybe im just not use to it..
Maybe i just dont understand...
Maybe im just too sensitive..
Maybe i just expect too much frm him..
Maybe im just too naive to think that Im his only sayang..
His only sayang in his life apart frm his family...
Im just tired of fighting...
I dun wanna fight no more..
Im honestly SICK of it..
Let it be our last fight..
For i really want this relationship to work..
I really love him so...
He's the only guy that I love so much..
Even words couldnt describe..
I noe i have a lot of issues to deal with..
I just wish i have non..
coz i really wanna have a carefree relationship..
free frm problems...
but hey,
Im only human..
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Saturday, April 09, 2005
pure bliss :)
{>*<} My angle {>*<}I heart him. I heart him. I heart him. period.
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Monday, April 04, 2005
short entry
Ouh kay, Im back!! Well, at least I think I am. Been wanting to go online but to no avail. My computer been a bit bitchy lately. It keeps hanging on me. So sadd :( I finally get to go online tday..
I'll update more when I have the tyme okey dokey??
Toodles!
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005
please help me to be as strong as i can~
Please help me to be as strong as i can..
I just wish the pain would go away..
I really cant cope all by myself..
Im not ready, not ready..
Rite now i feel so alone..
so lonely..
Keep having this pain..
I dont have anyone to turn to...
no one to talk to....
Except u..
Please be there for me..
I really need u at this point in tyme..
Its just hurts to be all alone..
Please, i cant do it all by myself...
I need ur support and gurdiance...
I just need u......
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Monday, March 28, 2005
~ why do guys fall in love wif grrls~
Why do boys fall in love with girls ?
Here are a few reasons why guys like girls:
1.They will always smell goodeven if its just shampoo
2.The way their heads alwaysfind the right spot on our shoulder
3.How cute they look when they sleep
4.The ease in which they fit into our arms
5.The way they kiss you andall of a sudden everything is right in the world
6.How cute they are when they eat
7.The way they take hoursto get dressedbut in the end it makes it all worth while
8.Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside
9.The way they look good no matter what they wear
10.The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth
11.How cute they are when they argue
12.The way her hand always finds yours
13.The way they smile
14.The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight
15.The way she says"lets not fight anymore"even though you know that an hour later....
16.The way they kiss when you do something nice for them
17.The way they kiss you when you say"I love you"
18.Actually ...just the way they kiss you...
19.The way they fall into your arms when they cry
20.Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly
21.The way they hit youand expect it to hurt
22.Then the way they apologizewhen it does hurt.(even though we don't admit it)!
23.The way they say"I miss you"
24.The way you miss them
25.The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore.....Yet regardlessif you love them,hate them,wish they would die or know that you would die without them ...it matters not.Because once in your life,whatever they were to the world they become everything to you.When you look them in the eyes,traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound,you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.We love them for a million reasons,No paper would do it justice.It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.A feeling.Only felt.
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